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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

When Time Comes - Chapter 8

That memory of him say hi and his Smile … was something I keep deep down inside me… even though my colleagues was asking me what happened… I told them nothing… because I want to keep the privacy of the wonderful feeling…..

As days goes by… it seems that our chances of meeting seems to get lesser and lesser… guess fate was doing down on us … and soon with my heavy load of work ….. the thoughts of him seem to have faded away as I bury myself into work… as everytime I am not able to finish and go home on time…. Thus … I gave up lunch hour to stay in and complete my job ….

Guess sometimes the weariness of your body and also your brain will leave you little or no space to think of other things…. But from the back of my memory… I think at times.. during the night when I sleep… I do dream a tiny bit of him and guess a Smile would have creped silently in the night onto my face……

But when I am wide awake… I cannot seem to remember anything about the dream or what it was… guess that is what work and tiredness can do to you… its take the simplest thing of happiness and dreams out of some one.

Even when I stare into space… all I can see and think is about my work and the many follow ups that I have to do ……..

Miss.Panda growing up. 10:33 PM.

When Time Comes - Chapter 7

After a few days of excitement and finally seeing who he is, the novelty of it dies down. The topic to them was no longer interesting as they move on to finding other gossips and stories. Soon they were pulling me to have lunch else where and tell me that its just pointless … since I do not even know him and too scare to even walk up and say :

“Hi ! I find you cute and would like to know you.”

What they say was true and taking their advice… I decided to snap out of it and move on in what all will feel more practice. That is to follow your brain and not your heart.

As if fate was waiting for me somewhere else…. We have change and gone on to a new place for lunch … and when we walk into the food court, there he was sitting right at the entrance.

I could not believe myself that LadyLuck was so good to me for the whole month.

My colleagues saw him too and was like dumb folded and lost for words. As we stand around looking for a place. I felt a sudden tap on my shoulder….

“We are leaving you can have our place”

The voice seems to familiar… where have I heard it before….. I turn around to see that it was “HIM” …. Too shocked and stun … all I could mumble out was a very whispery “ Thank You.” And a silly Smile to him….

He Smile back and nodded…..

I seat there for a moment feeling so weak in my knees and too shocked to be able to say another word…..

Miss.Panda growing up. 10:32 PM.

When Time Comes - Chapter 6

Days seems to pass and weeks seems to past … and all this was happening so quickly that I did not noticed that it has been 3 months since the first time I saw him…..

As everyday when I wake up to go to work… the thought of being able to catch a glimpse during lunch time was the motivation that keep me moving on.

Even though the Food court food was boring…. But just so that I could catch a glimpse at him and from his face could tell how was his morning was going … was a real treat for me.

I know I was going mad about him and this is so unlikely of me… but I really wonder at times… deep down inside me what was it that attracts me to him….. But I was never able to get the answer …..

My colleagues was starting to get puzzled by my behavior and was wondering what was is that makes me want to go to the same place for lunch every working day without fail….. Soon they could no longer take the mysterious me and starting to bombard me with questions….

“What is wrong with you?

“ Are you ok?

“Why do you want to go for lunch there everyday”

“Issit it not boring to have the same food at the same place everyday”

“It so unlike you?”

“Last Time when we go to the same place more then 2 times a week, you complained that its so boring .. and now everyday for the last 3 weeks you have been wanting to go there for lunch?”

The question just keep coming and coming… even thought I made up excuses that the food there was cheap and nice, none of them believe me at all.

After much pestering and questions, I finally broke down my defence and told them about “HIM”. Suddenly all seems to be so excited about him. Now a whole new set of questions was popping out.

I have lost my privacy of just having him to myself. The images, the thoughts, the feeling and so much more…..

Miss.Panda growing up. 8:57 PM.

When Time Comes - Chapter 5

Lunch was the same as it was yesterday… as usual the same topics of work and also where are the sales on right now and who and who are irritating people who do not understand us and keep on pushing work to us.

Then an image from afar capture all of my attention …. It was so familiar and so welcoming …. I could not believe my eyes… It was HIM…… Ladyluck has strike me for the second time this week….

There he was standing right in there just a few meters away from me …. With an expression that says he was thinking of what he want to have for lunch ….

Gone was all the conversation and gone was all the gossips that my brain was trying to install… instead all my attention was shift on to him… and also his surrounding… guess it was and instinct to see if “Ms Angel “ was with him…..

But nothing caught my eyes… a beautiful gal like her would have immediately have caught my eyes… but no she was nowhere to be seen or found ….

“Guess she is busy today” I told my humble self… but in my heart I was glad that she was not around …. And a tiny Smile creep onto my face…

He walk pass me with a tray in his hand and his eyes was like looking for a seat or for a friend… and he smile… and my eyes went with him in the direction he was heading to ….. my heart started to feel uneasy…. “Could I miss her from behide me”

“Phew… it just a male friend.” A relief went over me as I saw him approaching the table where some guys was already seated…..

He make my day once again …. And I am like a little gal falling in love for the very first time…..

Miss.Panda growing up. 8:55 PM.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

When Time Comes - Chapter 4

3 Months Ago

The day that I first saw him… with that angel beside him .. and the moment that captivated me ……

Lunch has never been more boring then today…. But the one thing that still excites me when I got back to office is the images of him flashing though my mind… the Smile and those memorizing eyes…. I have never seen such a pair of eyes before … just thinking of it makes my heart skip a beat

Wonder who is he and where is he from… was the only thoughts in my mind for the rest of the day. It seems like he is a dream come true for me ….

But what about the angel beside him ….. that image and question too run inside my mind … and by the end that day… I was having a headache… and it was due to all the swirling images in my little pea size brain ….

“Think no more of it …. You might also never see him again … he might just be a passing someone in your everyday’s life and no more then that… stop all the thinking and thoughts of him ….”

I told myself before I went into my slumber land that very night….. never expected what the next day was going to install for me…

Miss.Panda growing up. 11:26 PM.

When Time Comes - Chapter 3

The look that leaves me feeling a tangling pain in the heart for him and puzzled ……

“Where have the Smile gone to ?? The Smile that makes my heart flip everytime I sees it “

Still lost in my thought and with Chermaine rattling beside me…. The train and time seems to move by so fast…. Like a blink of an eye ……

“Oi… Reach already… what you thinking again ? “ Chermaine asked me as she nudged me in the elbow.

“Hmmm… Nothing la….Just thinking about work .” I replied to her… hoping she will that for an answer.

Luckily for me she did not ask any further and give me a puzzling look of disbelief. I just pretended that I did not notice that look and hurry to exit from the train with her.

Outside the train station… it still looks the same as before, the sky was pouring cats and dogs.. and everyone was hurrying pass me in umbrellas of all sizes and colours…

Rain can be so wonderful and it can be so hateful…. Wonderful coz it washes all the bad things feeling away… and hateful for it destroy you beautiful shoes and clothes… I guess there are always 2 side of the coin to look at…

Miss.Panda growing up. 11:21 PM.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

When Time Comes - Chapter 2

Following her footstep towards the train and braving the rain with my colleague Chermaine…. As I was lost in my own world… All I could heard was Chermaine’s voice ringing in my ear but noting could make sense to me ….

The right ahead I stop short…. There he was standing by the ticket machine .. he seems to be waiting for some one and the look on his face shows that he seems to be worrying about something ….

“Is it about work… Is it about the person he is waiting for” The question was just running though my mind.

I wanted so much to go over and ask him “ How is ur day ? Are you ok? Do u need help?“ but I know all these are just my wishful thinking… just a part of me that wants to share his problem …and bring the Smile back to his face.

“Ouch that hurts” I suddenly heard Chermaine shouting….once again she brought me back to sense…..

“ What happened to you ???”

“ Some Lady just knocked into me with her big ugly bag…. Can’t she say excuse me?…. Why does she not have any manners …………………….. “ Chermaine just went on and on and one about the gal …who has knocked into her .. and how this gal does not have any proper manners and not even a word of sorry to her ………

In my heart… I think the gal must be having an itchy ear or that she has to be sneezing right away non stop… from all the cursing and swearing that Chermaine was leashing out at her……

I just keep nodding my head in response to all of Chermaine’s grumble as my eyes drifted back to where he was standing … he was still in the same position as I last saw him .. and that look was still there….

Miss.Panda growing up. 6:32 PM.

When Time Comes - Chapter 1

The Rain start falling as I look out of the window.... the wind was blowing so hard and the raindrops are falling fast and fercious... and my heart goes out to the people who are battling the rain to rush home to be with their family and Love ones.

Guys in smart suits.. gals in office wear.... today is friday... and most people are planning on the week ahead... but it seems that the rain is going to spoil all their plans for the night...

As I look around ... and see if I could catch a sight of him ... lately he has not been around ... and he has not been walking this path... I wonder what has happened to him ... did he quit or he went overseas... or did he just move on in life.

I still remember the day ... when I first saw him .... the bright face... the Smiley face.. the face that has his eyes shinning like the stars...though it was from afar... but it was those that caught my eyes...as he walk pass me ... I could smell his perfume.... the smell that I knew I am going to remember it .......

Beside him ... and there she was... the angel in most gals and guys eyes.... her fawless skin ... her big enchanting bright eyes that can melt any guy's heart.... and the most beautiful Smile that I have seen ...

"Wow she is beautiful" I thought to myself.... she must be a fallen angel from heaven ....

"Gal !! What you doing ?" That shout from my colleague brought me back to sense...

" Ahhhh Nothing la ." I was totally stun ... and that is all I could reply

" Then lets head for home... the rain is killing ............." That was all I heard ...before i drift back to my day dreaming.........

Miss.Panda growing up. 3:10 AM.

Writing Stories

From reading a fellow blogger's stories... and thus having inspration(do not know how to spell.. I know my spelling is bad....) to actually write on stuff... do not know who will read... but some of my cloest friend have been reading my blog ... and told me that reading my blog ... helps him to keep his mind free and also relive stres... and thus .... I have decided to write it ... just for writing of it ... coz I have love writing since I was young ... so now just want to pen and share....

Thank you Ghost for giving me the inspration....

Miss.Panda growing up. 3:05 AM.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

An Advetisement for a friend

not sure how many ppl read my blog... but then i promise a friend that I will help to advertise his forum .. but now the forum sever is down at the moment ... so i cannot copy and past the coding... so the website address is : http://txeon.33host.com/... and till i wait for his server to come up .... then I can inculded the coding into my blog....

He is really trying to imporve himself and make the forum work... so go and support him .. and have fun inside... he has tons of videos and also broadcast TV and radio inside... .... hehe ... and me the spammer inside... lol... wahaha

Miss.Panda growing up. 10:17 PM.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Just some Updates

Its some 7 days after my partying ... and I am still feeling happy about the turn out of it and also happy that so many of us managed to gather together for the party and fun ..... That night was some night and I was dead drunk for the 1st time in my life... I was so drunk that I had to be carried onto the cab ... hehe ... but then I still knew what I was doing ....

My throwing up was due to the beer that our dear Steven gave to me ... the moment I was into the club ....and also more later ... we took tons of photos... with my new digital camera... ... the present that was given to me by some 27 ppl who share to give me my present... hehe .... so Happy and excitied about the whole thing... the cam has been in my bag since I got it as a present and I have been going around taking photos and videos on it... hehe .... do not have the photos here so hard to update on it ... as they took something like 223 pics all in all....

I have yet to delete the pics from my cam.. as I want to see how many photos and video can it contain before its full...

I know everyone is really happy about the whole party with birthday cake... drinks and all.... I have seend some cute guys.. who are like friends friends... and also some who try to hook some of my female friends up... coz there was so many of us ... and most are gals... hehe ... I post for tons and tons of photos... and smile and laugh till I am total gone...

But the party ended early... coz moi was so high that Angeline says... time to go home... so Steven carry me into the cab ... and then home we go... reach home also do not know waht time.. and I was already sleeping in my bed.. the only thing I can remember is that I woke up a couple of times to throw up and also at 5 am in the morning... I woke up to bath... take off my make-up and also contact lenses and then throw up some more before going bed to bed to sleep the whole night though... wow nice...

The next morning... no hang over for me... I even went out for ice cream with my best friend... lol... will talk more about the party later....

All I want to say is that I am so bored in office now with nothing to do ... what can I do now... boring ....

Miss.Panda growing up. 4:55 PM.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

IT MY HATCHDAY

wahaha 25 years ago ... a darling little Panda was born into this world ... at KK hospital to a beautiful mum and a not so handsome dad... lol.. whaha say my dad till like this... but nvm la ... he also do not know ..... so back to my Panda story.... so 25 years later here I am blogging about it .... hehehe

I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo happy today... when I got my parsents... that I totally cannot believe it ... I nearly cry and my eyes was all wet and shiny.... all I can say is they got me my dream present... something that I always wanted.... and I will blog about it some other time... coz I am so tired and sleepy now .. with all the excitment... and also going around ... I cannot take it anymore.... so I will say more about it maybe tomorrow morning ...

Coz full party is on full swing tomorrow.... heheh

Miss.Panda growing up. 10:24 PM.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

My Mummy's Birthday is TODAY !!!!

LOL... today is my mummy's birthday... and I have to endure last night till 12 midnight so that I can sms her to tell her Happy Birthday... lol and tonight my mum will have to sms me back ...

Coz my mum's birthday and mine is 1 day apart... she is on the 5th of April and mine is on 6th April... hehe so normally we will celebrate it together... hehe .. so that is why I and mum is so close... and as usual tonight we will be going for dinner ... weeeeeeeeeee have not buy cake yet... later maybe then go buy... small cake and cut ... hehe cannot ask daddy to go one.. coz he sure will not know how to buy or what to buy... so either myself or my sister will have to go get it for us ... hehe ....

Finally mum decided on what present she wants... that is the CK moments perfume... have to buy for her... and since I have a S$ 50 taka voucher from company for birthdays... I can use it ... I tot I have another S$ 50 from last year.. but cannot remember.. nvm la..S$ 50 enough liao ... the rest i top up lor... hehe

A little Inside of what I have gotton so far for birthday....

My boss also give me S$ 30 Capital Land voucher... so all can go shopping... and also I spend ....S$ 83 at DP to get a dress for my birthday... heheh ... and wonder what my darling sister is getting for me .. . hehe

And my friends cum colleague is planning a big suprise for me ... and I wonder what issit... they all have been actting so secretly and also like hush hush ..... giving my funny smiles... and also and giggling at me ... hmmmmmmmm... guesss I just have to wait ... and my poor best friend is planning the whole thing... must be hard on her.... so that is why... I LOVE HER

My god-brother Kenny is going to KL .. so i got him to get my the shoes that I nvm buy in KL the other time.. so I just call the shop in KL and weeeeeee they still have the shoe and that size in black... heheh so Happy... but no more discount... but my kor.. say he is getting for me as Birthday present... hehe ... so far all is I like one... wonder who else is buying my Presents... hehe

Till then ... lets see what happenes tomorrow ... and Friday.. cannot wait for it...

Miss.Panda growing up. 11:24 AM.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

ICE AGE 2

went to watch it on Thursday... wooohoooo opening day... what can u expect from a movie buff like me.... so funny... that i cannot stop laughing ... suoper super funny... and lomantic too ... hehe ... go watch ... nowadays... movies like to limited.... or shall i say good movies... and so the cartoon was really cool and nice and funny.... what can i say more... just go watch it ... especially if you are feeling upset... lalalala

watch this on Friday... after... and it as usual some romantic comedy... handsome man .. and pretty gals... I like it ... that is why i am a sucker for lomantic movies...

These few days have been going out ... drinking and all .. just wednesday was out with the gals at some pub drinking and having fun.... will blog on it more maybe tomorrow... need to arrange the pics a bit and now me missing my mummy and daddy... they have gone to malaysia and thus .. explains that I am home alone till Sunday night... and by the time they come home ... me will be watching Campus super star.... heheh ...

3 am in the morning ... and i think they have reach grandma's place....

Miss.Panda growing up. 2:50 AM.